May 1999 – December 2006

Today is a sad one. Buffy had gotten so sick we didn’t have a choice but to put her to sleep. She’d had a very hard month and it just got to be too much for her to take. Her breathing was labored, her thyroid was out of wack and today she couldn’t stand up on her own. Buffy spent the last 2 days at the vet as she was at her worst on Friday.

To spare all the details, just know that she was very sick and it was her time. I feel terrible about it, this morning was really awful. She was only 7 1/2, I know she did her best to stay with us. I looked into her eyes today and new she just wasn’t the same, the light in her eyes had gone. She hasn’t been the same Buffy in awhile. I feel numb about it now, it’s hard to take in that she isn’t here anymore.

For a long time I debated on being with her to the very end, to be with her if we had to help her go. I couldn’t do it thought. I thought I would be able to, but it was too overwhelming. I couldn’t even put words into the right order. She never liked to be alone and I felt like I should be right there when she went to sleep for the last time. Her leaving has so much pain and it was just beyond me to actually see her go.

But this is really just the negative, so let’s move on to what she really was. Buffy loved life and every single person she met. A real people pup she loved attention, to give and receive and just being with others. Simply hanging out was a good time for her. Her existence was as pure as you can get. No hate, no judgment. just love. Sure she had some annoying tendencies (loved a hand out, could raid a garbage can in quick order if you’re not looking and fancied a good sock or two), but who doesn’t? A soul from a saint and the personality of an angel.

The time since we got her when she was 8 weeks old to this very day was a joy with her. We will all miss you Buffy, from the bottom of my heart thank you for being with us. I hope you can now rest and some time down the line, I expect to see you on the other side. Thank you Buffy.

Love Always,
Nick